+[[ lifee of a girl who lives in the darkness]]+

[[soul]]

Faith is our destiny,
We can't revolve it.
For God's will is final,
Death may take course.
Fear is just infinite
preserve your dreams.
As birth is cycle,
Cardinal struck hurts,
Till the arrival of miracles.
Comes the day of crist,
Risen with white cells,
Feels the day of freedom

[[heartbroken]]

Engulf in solo wonders,
Bewildered by sorrow pains.
Overpowered and crushed,
From sand to fragments.
Pumping of heart to mind,
Left with lurk on oasis,
Exhausted by dripping fluid.
Came the arrival of grandeur,
Once again soul has revived.
Touching our inner core
With neither avail.
At the break of breadth,
Mesmerise your beauty....

[[holocaust]]

Sever from attachment,
Faced death with courage.
Protecting the hymen line,
Exposing carbon with triumph,
Lost in isolation field,
Accompanied by numerous companions.
Part with reluctance wishes,
Depart under unnatural circumstances,
Leaving rifles pierced to earth.
Naming entire took decades,
Every message received,
Breaks the connection union.
Weeping with disbelieve,
Leads to phobia for war.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

it wasnt my wish too. but i donwan to look back anymore. the things i have been doing recently is so stupid. y do love always hurt. WHY. someone tell me why? hate to say these la. but life jus sucks big time when bad things happen again and again. WTF. i hate all these happening. from that stupid relation(dono whether was it really a real one) to failing my o levels and to my brother's accident which even lead to his death. i jus hate all these happening. but there's nth i can do can i? i feel devastated man. suddenly i jus lose all hope in life. things are jus so beyond prediction. nvr did expect my life to take such a big turn, YES A BIG BIG TURN. when i am onli 17. fuck. i lost all hope ever since my Bro ended his life journey. but again, dad and mum were the onli reasons that i am staying alive. plus brother wouldnt wan me to thk that way. and he always want me to study hard and be someone useful. i wont cry.(how fake)

my brother is such a innocent person... i believed that he havent did something bad enough to had his life taken away. i was the evil one. i can even curse my own brother.. didnt know was it bcos of me or wat. if it was, i will be his slave my nxt life.. together with dad and mum, jus that i am the slave of the family. i deeply regret. regretting is worst off then heart breaking.the pain is beyond description. nvr regret anything. u will wanna die. i really hope to see my brother again, is that ever possible again? I CANT BELIEVE HE'S DEAD. CAN ANYONE TELL ME HE'S NT. EVERYTIME I BOARD THE TRAIN AND PASS BY HIS ACCIDENT PLACE, I BREAK DOWN. ALL E TIME I CRY. I CANT TAKE IT. I CANT ACCEPT THE FACT. CAN NVR ACCEPT THE TRUTH. I HATE MYSELF. WHY DO I HAVE TO UNDERGO THIS KIND OF PAIN.. ITS UNFAIR... PLS LET ME SEE MY BROTHER AGAIN. I REALLY MISS HIM THAT BADLY.

sam speaks @ 5/11/2006 10:15:00 AM

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